my style

생각날때 기록해놔야해서:


-귀거리한 남자는 싫지만, 시게찬 남자는 좋다


-화낼줄은 알지만, 화를쉽게 내던가 많이 내는 남자는 싫다


- 무관심한 남자는 싫고, 인내심 많은 남자는 좋아


-돈욕심 많은 남자 싫지만, 잘 벌고 잘쓸줄아는 남자가 좋다

- 열정과 게획이 있는 남자는 좋다


-집에서 나랑 영화보면서 조용히 즐기는 남자도 좋지만, 나가서 여행하면서 질길줄도 아는남자가 좋아


- 춤잘추는것도 좋지만, 노래잘하면 완저 좋아


tbc...

- - - - edit 06/17- - - -
- 쌍커풀 없는 남자가 좋다.

------edit 07/29-----
- 나보다 나이가 많은 남자가 좋다.

This fork in the road is gonna cost me... my past, my future, maybe both.


But I can't tell which is which, there's simply not enough for me to measure one against the other.

From what I can see, both roads are broad and both roads are narrow...

I can't tell if my justifications are truly legitimate, or if they're simply well-wishes from my mind.

God help me.

bipolar, much?

when Jesus looks at me, he probably shakes his head, chuckling to himself, thinking: "Oh, ye of little faith."

"In my anguish I cried to the LORD, and he answered by setting me free.
The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?
The LORD is with me; he is my helper. I will look in triumph on my enemies...
The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation...
I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the LORD has done...
Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever."
- from Psalms 118-

I read Psalm 118 this morning to start off the day. OH man, what a downpour of blessings God has granted me today.

Reading my previous post, I think to myself and chuckle, "Oh, me of little faith..."

Thank you God.

which is it?

how i feel today:
either LIFE SUCKS or I SUCK AT LIFE

finger blisters

maybe Bm is the hardest chord i know how to play...
but being able to pick up the guitar and play a couple songs
is really making my day daily.
finger blisters? totally worth it.

first step

walked into the building 15 minutes early
got on the elevator
entered the waiting room 10 minutes before my time
to the surprise of a man caught off guard.
"Oh! you're early!"

given a page long explanation of the process
and an essay prompt
wrote my first essay in months, rating myself in my "excellence"
(in customer service)

group interview, one of three in the room

three interviewers
with broken english, claiming second generation status, boasting decades of working in the company
cant agree with the former, dont doubt the latter

just remember when you come up

the show goes on

crossed the line

I give myself until th end of June

to get out of here.

This means:

• get a 9-5 job (in DTLA)
• get a car (Hyundai Tucsan)
• find a place to stay (weekdays) - rent below $700.

go go go!

i no want

ENGRISH!

i will try my best to speak (predominantly) english from here on out~

seriously

seriously being pushed to my utmost limit
physically depleted
psychologically perplexed
emotionally outraged
spiritually low.
gotta get that spiritual flow back up.
it'll bring me back to equilibrium.
2 days.
please let me
focus.

like Job

being tested like Job in the most critical of times
keeping my head on straight
and my eyes on God
the devil can't knock me down

                and all God's people said, "Amen."

birthday

Thank you, God!

Thanks mom & dad!

23

time waits for no one

let's make something of this life

T minus 12 days

대박네자.화이팅

01.30.11

tumblr, twitter, facebook, oovoo, skype, windows live, youtube, cyworld, aol instant messanger, gchat, blogger....

i need to. cut. down. on. my. accounts...

if you happen to know all my accts........

then i'll give you

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.a restraining order for stalking me ... not...

but. really. that's kind of scary...

why i shouldnt sleep...

i was getting tired so i asked my dad to bring me starbucks...
he brought these back for me and said

"이거 다마시고 밤세 공부해. 잠잘 생각 하지도 마...."

그레서 울면서 다 마셨다.

그리고 곳바로 잤다 ^ㅅ^

01.20.11

feeling the need for God-given wisdom
the need to be granted the spiritual eyes
and the sensitivity to His leading,
that i may discern what i need to do
which road i need to take

the decisions that will have to be made
and the consequences that will pour in T minus 22 days
gotta stop running, gotta face it full on

seoul.losangeles.newyork
God only knows

pray.pray.pray

i dont do it

to make money or because i have the talent
i just do it in hopes that it will somehow touch
or heal
or simply entertain

God blesses me in a way
that i end up receiving more than i gave

today, i came home with a ben in my pocket
and new sheet music. i think i'll be recording in march...

what happened

to my cold crisp 30 degree, often rainy, preferably snowy, WINTER weather????
why is it mid 80s with the sun exploding?
how come my neighbors are out in bathing suits washing their dogs and filling their wading pools in their front yards??? :(

i want current seoul winter weather. hehe. -17degrees....with SNOW <

oh mother...

upon seeing the horrible condition of my skin
(from getting no sunlight, zero exercise, breathing recycled air, and stress)
my mother ran upstairs to her room and brought me
"skin repair/protectant cream"
she said "all the missionaries and pastors' wives use this when they have skin problems! They say it works wonders!!!!"
thrilled and thankful, i ran to the bathroom, washed my face, and applied the cream liberally.
it soon dried into a thick dry white paste, almost like smeared chalk.

i thought this cream would provide moisture and replenish vitamins into my skin.
something seemed 'off' so i flipped the cream tube to read the back.

under "Uses" [or should i say use, since it listed only one], it read: "for the prevention and repair of diaper rash"

Oh mother.

maybe my skin will become, as the saying goes, "as soft as a baby's bottom"...